A letter to Heart !!

Dear Heart,

I know you’re being very happy and satisfied right now, I feel it too. Things happen in last couple of weeks are seems to be like a dream coming true. I am sorry now, you have to be with her because your place in me has been already taken by her heart. I’m very sorry I can’t do anything much to stop her heart taking place of yours. But do you know that both hearts are dancing on the same beat? Don’t worry she will protect you same way as I do.

Do you know that you never ever follow the rule where mind do. The mind thinks where you only feel. Emotions, feelings, love, they are always around you and now you got someone with whom you can share all your emotions, I am feeling jealous of yours.

You know with the time, lot of responsibility will be come on you, you have to make everyone happy specially to her. So, don’t make any mistakes, even though you are human heart but take care of every situation artistically. You can’t turn back time and do a correction because you don’t have eraser to do that.

Trust your innocence, trust your love, trust on trust someone else have on you, see the dreams someone have seen with you, you don’t want to break them at all, don’t you? Play on the safe side, Heart.

And you know what, you have your own grace and that’s the reason you are getting admired by her. You don’t have that flamboyance kind of attitude but you have insane sweep of emotions, flicking of expressions. You are just a heart of a man and she is the only woman who provoked the desires that no other woman has ever been able to do. It may sound indecent but if you look at the honesty of it then you won’t find anything wrong in it. It’s just a wish, one of the countless wishes I will carry to live with her.

Heart, you know she is now intriguing part of my life. Why? Very few relationships grows so strong very fast. People say relationship that grew fast are shallow kind of. But I don’t think that’s hold true for us. I can’t say how much of our nature/behavior helped it and believe me I am not afraid of anything at all. Because we have started this relationship with what we are , not we pretend to be. May be it was planned for us to stay this way, may be it is destined to stay this way.

You have been the reason behind many of my smiles. I thank you for everything.  God bless you. Bbye. Take care.  :-)

Second Inning officially!!

Guys before you run your mind somewhere else let me tell you that don’t think anything else after reading the title of the blog, come along with me I will take you where I want you all to go. Sorry to disappoint many people (or many had felt good about it) otherwise :D. ok still you don’t know what I am talking about than check out my previous posts…. Getting committed :)

At this point of time, I am in a very different state of mind where I can’t believe that I have already taken up the decision with whom I will be sharing my rest of life. Just few days back, every morning I wake up and wonder how life will take a turn and where it will go? Who will be going to share my life, everyday after returning back from work watching TV and wondering with the emptiness for the rest of the day. Now people don’t think that I am very pathetic and sad person, this is just highlights of the thoughts I had but now I am so excited, I know she will not make me feel alone any moment, she will be there to listen me, talk with me, to make me happy, to keep me busy…..hehehe

I have been completely enjoying every moment of the post-official engagement preps. Here are some fun moments -

The Father-in-Law   (Dharmendra Paaji)

Very first day after retaliating so much they went for shopping and that too for me : ) and that too in RAYMOND shop (read Raymond in bold)..lolzz.. He call up me from the shop

FIL : Hello, why you were not picking up my call?

Me : (Abhi inko kya bolun mein) Hello, I was getting refreshed.

FIL : Refreshed for what? (in mind he might be thinking that I am going for date with his daughter)

Me : Just came from office. So tell me how come you call me up today? (cutting down the conversation)

FIL : I am in Raymond shop to buy clothes for you (read Raymond in bold) just wanted to know your choice

Me : (wondering what was real purpose of calling me) it’s ok, I am fine with any of your choice (unless it is really from Raymond)

FIL : They won’t exchange afterwards

Me : (I am not mad to come back to you with clothes again) I am confident with your choice… ddaa…..dd :P

The Mother-in-Law  "Eat Eat Beta... How Thin You Are"

MIL Scene no 1 - "Shankar, eat more... so thin you are... else you won't look good in shaadi"

MIL Scene no 2 - “Shankar, take some more… so thin you are... else you won't look good in shaadi"

MIL Scene no 3 (looking at me from head to toe) - "… so thin you are... else you won't look good in shaadi"

The Subconscious Sixth Sense

Do you know that I am a very good listener? I will listen to you even if you talk to me while I am asleep.  : ) No, really! I can listen you and now I have to listen you quietly all the time. Obviously, kaun dimag kharab karega apna : D

Stop Confusing Me!

She (to me) : “You are such a nice person! Be like this after marriage also okay?”

She(to me the very next day) : “will you be like this after marriage also kya?”

Lesson learnt : Only listen, don’t think :)

Me (deciding to join in action) - "I miss you so much that I started missing you even if you are with me…lolzz just kidding baccha…love you shona!!"

That's all folks!

Will update you all after some days. I am on a month (probably) long (I wish this new feelings stay longer period) post engaged period, let me enjoy the most beautiful time of the love, when you get love without asking for it :):)

Color's of Life

What makes me to write this? Even I don’t know. But sometimes you just feel burden of the unknown weight on you own shoulders and you feel everything is interconnected. And then sometimes they don’t. one would wonder how that happen. There aren’t answers to all questions. Some questions demand no answers. Rhetoric.

Yet, in a life something always remains so absurd, abstract. Wondering why this happen? Is that one needs to think about only good side of everything? Or one just needs to ignore bad side? Our perspective in life are so blunt to someone else, it also gives monotonous impression to but one need to understand for that person that perspective may be a way to see those coming changes.

There aren’t two sides to a coin. It has faces, curves, vertices. Sometimes in a life we presumes that things are either black or white, either true or false. But we forget that there exist shades of grey, blue, yellow, red…. Same way something is true for someone and may be false for someone else. Versatility. Individuality. Radiance. They depict so much character, one would almost a expect a pause. Almost. But it’s not.

Yet somehow, you try to pause everything around you. They energize, depress, anger, infuriate, calm, soothe.... They do all this and more. Yet, we can't give them life. They do that to us. Personification, you say. Suit yourself.

The irony, however, remains so volatile. When they choose to get together, stick together, join hands and support your goal they fuse and transform into a lovely, peacefully soothing white. When they revolt, argue, contradict, rebel and repel, they bounce away, reflect off, dissipate and diffuse to leave behind a dark, gloomy, almost toxic black.

One would wonder why that happens, what happens to the shades and colors. What happens to them? What happens to you? You'd think they are not interconnected. And then again, sometimes, they do...

"Live life big not Long"

It’s Monday morning blues and I am sitting in front of my PC unaware of what to do. This is because of you. You are roaming in my mind. I woke up early in the morning today because of some messages in my inbox. I took my cell, browse through the inbox and read all the sms’s one by one. I want to believe that these all can be dream and you know dream dreamt early in the morning really come true. J

But you know at the moment I am not holding on to any hopes. I know you don’t believe in words. So you should relax now, you will not be stand on any wrong side because of anyone’s hopes. Strange isn’t it!! How I am thinking about you now. Well with the time you even come to know more about it.

You know, you are the one who I think has everything that I hoped were in ‘Sukanya’ and you does not posses a lot of the things that I hated in ‘Sukanya’. From last two days I tried to see ‘Sukanya’ in you, but than I realized there is something more than ‘Sukanya’ lies inside you. Believe me, for few more days I will think on the same line until I start liking you more than a friend J. Well I don’t want to think much beyond the limit as of now but sheer existence of yours in last couple of days making me so much happy. Thank you.

Do I need to explain now how my imagination has drawn a sketch of yours idiot? Tell me how am I to tell you what makes me to write this? whatever you have had shared with me so far doesn’t define you conservative girl at all. But I like to say you ‘a traditional forward girl’. Yup it says everything which you wanted me to understand. Isn’t it?

I will start with the your hairs, well what makes you to say that you highlight your hair regularly and that too with the red, yellow and now gold….. well I need to have smile on it….its fine re unless it goes with your personality and doesn’t look weird on you J And about ring…well I am only concerned with your left hand 4^th finger who touch your heart directly. Remaining all fingers are yours J

You know I have a habit of building a castle with the hope out of sand and I did always intentionally. Things that crumble easily don’t hurt when destroyed, they come with their share of bleak chances of survival. And if it survive than the emission of happiness from that will be altogether of different level.

The line which I liked most so far is ‘Live life big not long’ and it goes with your personality. I mean swimming, skating, badminton, karate, yogic, etc what not yaar… I mean this stays how you have grown wisely. I mean you may not be expert but still you know what it means ‘spirit of sports’ and you know that will make you unique in whole crowd.

There is seed of hope growing in my fertile heart now that someday you will become the one I have always wanted and seriously somehow I will manage to come up to your expectation too.

When I started this, I thought of writing so much but I think I will stop here. A lot of things have remained unspoken between us. It’s our book of secrets where we will write pages after pages together.

NB: This post has been written couple of months back : )

Something for You :)

Today I met you I found more than a friend And we are in relationship that I pray will never end Your smile - so sweet And so bright - Kept me comforting When day was as dark as night. You never tried to judged me, You understood my sorrow. Then you told me it needn't be that way And gave me the hope of a better tomorrow. You are always there for me, I knew I could count on you. You will give me advice and encouragement Whenever I didn't know what to do. You helped me know what love means You made life seems so good. You said I can do anything for you And suddenly I knew even I could. There were moments when we didn't see eye to eye And there were days when both of us cried. But even so we made it through: Our Relationship hasn't yet died. Circumstances will pulled us apart, We can separated by many mile Truly, the only thing that keeps us going Is treasured trust of WE will smile whatever we shared Is so precious to me, I hope it grows and flourishes And lasts unto infinity. You are so extra-special to me And so this to you I really must tell: You are my true love, My Guardian Angel, I love you all !!Shank!!

What "Mother" Means:

"Mother" is such a simple word,
But to me there’s meaning seldom heard.
For everything we're today,
Our mothers' love showed us the way.

I’ll love my mother all my days,
For enriching my life in so many ways.
She set me straight and then set me free,
And that’s what the word "mother" means to me.

She stood behind me, Even when I were wrong.
She felt proud of me, Even when I hardly won.

She held my fingers, When I wanted to run fast.
She taught me to walk, When I was dumb like a block.

I owe you more then my love to you,
And i know this love is also 'so much due'..

I love you Mom, I truly do.. I love you Mom, I really Love you..