Harsha Bhogle's note after Ind-SA match

Remember when you failed an examination. How many people recall that, your class, friends, relatives? You failed to make it to the IITs or IIMs. Who remembers. How many times have you had the feeling of being the best in your class, school , university, state….., you failed to get a visa stamped this quarter…, you missed a promotion this year…, how did it feel when you dad told you in your early twenties that you are good for nothing…..and now your boss tell you the same....

You keep introspecting and go into a shell when people most of whom don’t matter a dime in your life criticize you, back bite you, make fun of you. You are left sad and shattered and you cry when your own kin scoffs at you. You say I am feeling low today. It takes a lot from us to come out of these everyday situations and move on. A lot??? really?

Now here’s a man standing on the third man boundary in the last over of a world cup match. The bowler just has to bowl sensibly to win this game. What the man at the boundary sees is 4 rank bad bowls bowled without any sense of focus, planning or regret. India loses, yet again in those circumstances when he has done just about everything right.

He does not cry. Does not show any emotion. Just keeps his head down and leaves the field. He has seen these failures for 22 years now. And not just his class, relatives, friends but the whole world has seen these failures. We are too immature to even imagine what goes on in that mind and heart of his. That’s why I would never want to be Sachin.

True, he has single handedly lifted to moods of this entire nation umpteen number of times. He has been an inspiration to rise above our mediocrity. Nobody who has ever lifted the willow even comes close to this man’s genius. His dedication and metal strength is unparallel. This is specially for those people who would have made fun of him again last night when India lost. They are people who are mediocre in their own lives. Who just scoff at others to create cheap fun. Who have lived in a small hole throughout their lives and thought they have seen the oceans.

Think about the man himself. He is 37 years of age. He has been playing almost non stop for 22 years. The way he was running and diving around the field last night would have put 22 year olds to shame. The way he played the best opening quickies in the world was breathtaking. He just keeps getting better which is by the way humanly impossible. Its not for nothing that people call him GOD.

But still I don’t want to be in those shoes. We struggle in keeping our monotonous lives straight, lives which affect a limited number of people. Imagine what would be the magnitude of the inner struggle for him, pain both mental and physical, tears that have frozen with time, knees and ankles and every other joint in the body that is either bandaged or needs to be attended to every night, eyes that don’t sleep before a big game, bats that have scored 99 international tons and still see expectations from a billion people.

And he just converts those expectations into reality. We watch in awe, feel privileged.Well I think its time that his team realizes that enough is enough. They have an obligation, not towards their country alone but towards sachin. They need to win this one for him. Stay assured that he himself will still deliver and leave no stone unturned to make sure India wins this cup.

This is not just a game, and he is not just a sportsman. Its much more than this. Words fail here.....

Amazing Story

I was reading some of speeches from eminent business leaders and came across this wonderful story from Azim Premji about the power of education and cascading effects of educating one child.

The story is about a poor Scottish farmer named Fleming. One day, while trying to make a living for his family, he heard a cry for help coming from a nearby bog. He dropped his tools and ran to the bog. There, mired to his waist in black muck, was a terrified boy, screaming and struggling to free himself. Farmer Fleming saved the boy from what could have been a slow and terrifying death. The next day, a fancy carriage pulled up to the Scotsman's sparse surroundings. An elegantly dressed nobleman stepped out and introduced himself as the father of the boy Farmer Fleming had saved.

"I want to repay you, " said the nobleman. "You saved my son's life." "No, I can't accept payment for what I did," the Scottish farmer replied, waving off the offer. At that moment the farmer's own son came to the door of the hovel.

"Is that your son?" the nobleman asked. "Yes," the farmer replied proudly.

"I'll make you a deal. Let me take him and give him a good education. If he's anything like his father, he'll grow to a man you can be proud of." And that he did. In time, Farmer Fleming's son graduated from St. Mary's Hospital Medical School in London, and went on to become known throughout the world as the noted Sir Alexander Fleming, the discoverer of Penicillin. Years afterward, the nobleman's son was stricken with pneumonia. What saved him?

Penicillin.

This is not the end. The nobleman's son also made a great contribution to society. For the nobleman was none other than Lord Randolph Churchill. And his son's name was Winston Churchill.

I think this is the only way for accelerating economic growth and development for the entire world economy. Those who know, share there information. You never know when you end up making a farm kid into Alexander Fleming.

Dream, Work and Life !!

I thought to finish my school
Before I start dream

I thought to finish my college
Before I start dream

I thought to get my job
Before I start dream

I thought to switch my job
Before I start dream

Finally when I thought about my happiness
I started missing my dream

I don’t know how many of you had dream and how many of you have had courage to achieve and work towards the dream which you have had seen being with you in the midst of those nights where you want to love yourself more than anyone else, where you want to laugh with your soul.

Our life is not an accident. We are here for a purpose, some central mission, some dream which we had seen every time before sleeping from our childhood and that dream has the potential to make you feel extraordinary.

Let be practical about dreams. I am talking about ‘the dream’ for which you have to work in your life to achieve it. Dream something which you can aim that, focused on, breaks all chains that might have previously bound you. It’s statement to all of them whom you want to give answer but without any words. It’s your challenge to discover you with in yourself.

I am in for roller coaster ride for next 3 months. Same feelings I had last year same time before I launched myself for Level 1 exam. And now things are getting more difficult. I think my next three months will be more challenging. I need to work hard to inch towards my dream. And these days, I have to motivate myself almost everyday to keep that thirst at the highest level. In fact I need to have another affair with whom I will stay through out day and night. And good part is that I had a taste of success after putting hard work so, I know how much effort required tasting that again.

I am just scared this time because I need to pull out this all alone but that is what mean to me Dream, work and Life!!!

Some where I understood that many times for long term benefits, short term losses have to suffered. But once you have courage to take those risks and handle that short term anxiety for your long term dream, you will see yourself clearly on a path which is moving towards your dream.

I wish this time again I will synergize my efforts towards a particular direction. I will overcome all the obstacles and hurdles. For me it’s not struggle for existence but it will be surely struggle for perseverance.

I need all your good wishes to balance my dream, work and life!!!

Wish me ‘all the best’ for my next 3 months journey.

God comes after him, in Cricket !!

Here comes a day in International Cricket, double century in ODI and that too from a man who was never short of any records, any fame, any name. He had already conquered Everest in his cricketing career but still he has the same hunger, love, passion which he had 2 decades ago. What a man!!! What a character!!! What an Idol!!!

While writing this I have goose bums all over my body!! I am glazing my pc screen from almost last 30 mins with hundreds of thoughts, millions of words and struggling to put arrays of words to capture a great maestro. He is definitely beyond the words of any one on this planet.

He seems to me greater than cricket, greater than life itself. I am not one who will going to say what he has done was good, what he needs to do now, what next… I am not capable of saying that but what I read from him is that how he has done that!! Can you imagine that he had stopped whole country billions of people from breathing air while moving from 199 to 200. It required some miracle to achieve what he has achieved so far in the reality. Even world’s most prominent politician also is not capable to achieve that. In the finest of analysis I really feel that he is one of the avatar of lord Krishna!!

“Success is a journey, Not a destiny” Sachin Tendulkar. Yes Indeed success is a journey. It all start with your dream, passion, love, dedication, perseverance. As it shown by him, numbers of feathers getting attached on his head, he is getting that much more humble, down to earth person. He was already a legend, he was already a cricketing God. He had more records than any one on this planet; I could go on and on. He has it all; maybe he always had.

It takes a real character to keep your childhood dream going. He has to nurtured his career in a such manner resembling the master act on its life. He always took the utmost care to keep himself away from all the controversies. Sometimes he just gives answer to everyone without any words. This is what makes him different from almost all around this world!! Take a bow man!!

As said by some saints, “Success stays with the person who has a same level of gratitude to keep his/her feet on the ground”. And he has done that. Just imagine what it takes to keep feet on the ground with the amount of fame/name/success he has!! Kudos to you man!! Best of example I can give here is the Tendulkar trademark to look up to the heavens and thank someone up there for yet another milestone.

Doubtless, each one of the celestial fans, ranging from his father to Bradman, and a whole lot of others would have been standing and applauding an epic. Legends by their nature dominate the sport they take to. Tiger Woods, Michael Jordan, Pele. The list could go on. But seldom has there been one, who has been pristinely clean. And to me, nothing would devastate me more than if I found something ‘not right’ about Tendulkar. May that day never come.

There is lot more to learn from him not in a cricket field but also on the day to day life!! He is the benchmark of the success, inspiration for many generation going to come on this earth.

Conversation with Autowala

There was something happened today, that really touched me in fact that made me feel compelled to share it with all of you guys. There are some good people around you and when you find someone good unexpectedly you start wondering about that person!!

I missed my bus today in the morning so I had to catch the train and get down to one of the suburban station of the Mumbai and had to catch auto for reaching office on time. And suddenly that Autowala decided to strike up a conversation with me. Normally, I don't really like to talk with all those people because usually when I do travelling I like to be in my thoughts of wonderland but as he chattered away, I found myself admiring the attitude of this Autowala.

It all started when I told him where I wanted to go, and he quickly confirmed my destination and my urgency to reach over there by giving me the names of all the streets and the landmarks that were close by. He then told me that it's really important for him as a Autowala to know all the areas of suburban's very well, so that he knows exactly where to take his customers when they get into his auto.

He said that you can't depend on the people to know how to get to where they want to go, which is what Autowala are for. On and on he went, talking about all the places he has driven to already that day, even though it was only 10 in the morning. As I was a part of conversation, I casually remarked that he must have a good day since he had so much business. Then he replied, sometimes I have good days, and sometimes I have bad days. But in the end, it all evens out, and I guess that's pretty much all I can ask for. I nodded in agreement with the strangely deep philosophy behind that statement; I was just amazed with the optimism of that Autowala.

He didn't stop over there, he said "You know, at the end of the day, it doesn't matter what kind of job you're doing, but you still need to do your very best. It's your responsibility. Just like hoe it's my responsibility as a Autowala to know all the roads. Might not mean so much to some people, but it helps."

I reached my destination and I paid his fare but my mind still hovering around that Autowala. He just made me understand the meaning of the word RESPONSIBILITY.

Whether it is related to your work, family, friends or social but you need to understand your responsibility. Kudos to you man, Autowala.

Thanks for giving me such a brief, yet so important lesson in a 10 min auto ride.

Stretch Beyond Your Limits

If you can . .

• If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
  

• If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too;
  

• If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or, being hated, don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
  

• If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
  

• If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
  

• If you can meet with triumph and disaster And treat those two imposters just the same;
  

• If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to broken, And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
  

• If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breath a word about your loss;
  

• If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch; If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you; If all men count with you, but none too much;
  

• If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds' worth of distance run - Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it, And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

"A Fight Within Myself"

There is always "the one", who you ARE...
Then there is "the one", who you WANT to be...

And by default, the one you want to be is better...
Faster, higher, stronger...
Else there is no point imitating him...
You are better off otherwise...

Now, the million dollar question is..
How much???
How much you should run after for being the one you not are...
Or should you even try???

Every person CAN do certain things and CAN NOT the others...
I think, its better to cash on your positives...
Theres no point imitating and ruining self esteem...

Everyone CAN NOT be a Sachin Tendulkar...
You got to live with what you got...
You got limitations, work around them...
Cribbing didnt take anyone anywhere...
You'll find you most of the time sulking alone...

There is a very thin line between being ambitious and being lunatic...
But being ambitious has nothing to do with blindly aping others...

Be ambitious...
Set your targets...
Set your goals...
But dont do ONLY to prove a point to OTHERS...
What would you do with it after your ego is dealt with???

As one of my friend says..
"Do it.. Dont overdo it"

And as my mom says...
"Every one is different and unique"

Anyways, you are smart enough to decide...
Grass is always greener on the other side...

And above all...
Do not complain...
Do not blame...
It never took anyone anywhere...

Its better to be late rather than never
I am late to realize my destiny but i did realized it!!
And now i Know where i will fit and how i will do that

I know i am far behind in this RACE
But i am still running
Hope is still alive
And I will get paid off..
Just Believe in yourself!!

Wake Up Shank !!

Accounts.. Finance.. Stocks.. Derivatives.. Balance Sheets.. Annual Reports...Equity...Future... Why i am thinking about this all the day??

Whats happening to me?
I am an engineer....
I am a Business Analyst in Telecom Company...
Why am I doing all this?
How can I be remotely bothered about A=L+E??

Wake up Shank wake up...That's your Dream!!
Smell the coffee...
See the sun...
Its not the same old world you wanted to be a part of a few days ago..

But it was a same world where i was living earlier also..It never shook me..

The world have gone wild now..Time have gone short now..

How am I supposed to tackle then?

Get wild son..Get Fast son

Not possible...

Eat or get eaten...

There HAS to be some other way around...

There isnt..

I dont believe you..

You would one day...

I doubt..

Better realize sooner than later..

What about the cliched aspects of having a patience for your passion?
Smile and world smiles with you..

As you said..
They are cliched..

I dont belive you..

You would one day..

And I thought I had seen everything..

Its 2009...
You havent seen it yet years to come...

Whats in store?

Everything..
Pain, Love, Hatred, Happiness, Tears, smiles, success, failure, top, bottom..

Wat now

Nothing is for you this year..

I dont believe you..

You would one day..

But why wilderness??

You asked for it..

No way!!

Yes child...

I dont believe you..

You would one day..
You would one day...
You would one day....

Bill Gates' 11 Rules of Life...

Rule 1 : Life is not fair - get used to it!

Rule 2: The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one

The meaning of life

The meaning of life differs from man to man, from day to day and from hour to hour. What matters today may not be matter same tomorrow, therefore, is not the meaning of life in general but rather the specific meaning of a person's life at a given moment.

To put the question in general terms would be comparable to the question posed to a chess champion: "Tell me, Master, what is the best move in the world?" There simply is no such thing as the best or even a good move apart from a particular situation in a game and the particular personality of one's opponent.

The same holds for human existence. One should not search for an abstract meaning of life. Everyone has his own specific vocation or mission in life to carry out a concrete assignment which demands fulfillment. Therein he cannot be replaced, nor can his life be repeated. Thus, everyone's task is as unique as is his specific opportunity to implement it.

I am %33.33% CFA Now . . . .

Carrying out with the Hopes which I have written in my post after my exam is still alive. I don't know exactly what changes this hope is making into my daily routine but one thing is sure that it is giving me enough fuel to keep those desires burning in my belly.

Let me Thanks some people here, their support and wishes really made me to roll over very easily. I know what they all are means to me and I know what I have to do for them but for the moment, Thank you very much to all of you.

Well overall 46% of students have cleared the exam, so not a great deal but it was great thing for me as I was neither from financial background nor from B school. Its matter to me as it was the answer to many questions I have faced and I will face in the future. I just wanted to prove that this is the area where my heart and brain both works together and this the area where I will prove myself, not easy of course but I am ready to face all the challenges coming in between my dream..

This is just end of phase 1 of my new affair; there will be many things I need to do before moving to the next phase. But I am happy to have some assets in my balance sheet on which I can leverage myself more. This is the time where I need to understand TVM concepts to utilize my next four months for better NPV and better IRR.

I know success comes with sense of responsibility, courage, determination. And you can understand this all things together only when you attain certain things, so I am still nowhere near to what I want to accomplish in my life so for me this words are mere affection so far, but I really want to feel these words.

I am short of words this time, I really don't know exactly how many thoughts are coming in to my mind, and actually I need to have answer of many questions I am asking to myself before moving into next phase. Let me end this post abruptly here again with the Hopes I am carrying along with this journey.

"Let the Hope begins with the Will"

Will Not Give Up!!

Thought it would be a fairy tale
Living in a world which look so much live
But I found it's not easy
As I will turn twenty five

Who said life's easy
Must be haven't seen it through
Coz it raining on Sunday here
and days turning blue

Don't worry life, as you have always known me
I will never give up, as you have shown me
That there may be days with no sun shining
But even the darkest of clouds have a silver lining

Time to try something new

Time to try something new
Get out do something you knew
Life is not without struggle
You have to win this battle

Taking a little time to see
What it is that you need
Finding a way to breathe
Forget all useless myth

Leaving your odds behind
Not knowing what you will find
Bringing the dream to reality
Living a life with more clarity

Memories of times better spent
Finding the life you had bent
Rather than living a behind
dream what you want to find

Time to try something new
Not knowing just what you will do
Finding the life you are meant
Now you decide what you want

Good thoughts by Swami Vivekananda.........

Words of Swami Vivekananda When I Asked God for Strength He Gave Me Difficult Situations to Face When I Asked God for Brain & Brown He Gave Me Puzzles in Life to Solve When I Asked God for Happiness He Showed Me Some Unhappy People When I Asked God for Wealth He Showed Me How to Work Hard When I Asked God for Favors He Showed Me Opportunities to Work Hard When I Asked God for Peace He Showed Me How to Help Others God Gave Me Nothing I Wanted He Gave Me Everything I Needed -Swami Vivekananda

I am Back !!

Yes I am back after long time, a time which has given me lot of hopes. Hopes for changes, Hopes for dreams, Hopes for mission, Hopes for passion, these hopes are still alive with counting each day becoming past. Nope I am not soldier who save others life while fighting on border but I am a common human who fight for his dreams and responsibility and for fulfilling those dreams and responsibility he keeps his hopes alive.

Just few months back when I wrote about my new affair, I knew that this affair will not going to be piece of cake and to some extent I was right. In life or say in practical you will never get smooth and straight road to drive it's your responsibility that how safe and well you drive on a path which you have chosen. It's same with me I don't know how well I drove but there were many obstacles on a way some of them were self made some of them natural but I reached the day with hopes that are still alive.

I don't know that I am giving so much importance to my new affair or not but this was the first time ever I was confided to something so strongly and you knew about it. I am not asking any favor from you but still you better know what I am saying right GOD?

Its all started in January till June first week, I am not saying that I had done wonders any one can do it but it is special to me the way I had done it. Its making me feels satisfied up to some extent but result is not in my hand and I am having awful nights while thinking of it. But now it's over, waiting for the result, preparing SWOT analysis with each case. With the passing days I am coming to know that how things will be difficult when u time is running against you.

Nothing is going on my way recently, for every small thing I have to struggle, now its time where i need to understand and implemet time value money concept, early the cash flow better will be NPV and there is better chance that you will get high internal return rate. This IRR is important ofcourse finally you are going to judge by your NPV value but for your internal satisfaction IRR is important. I need to understand what is my assets and liablities, and where I need to leverage myself to get the better return. There is lot more things to do and understand this time as my payback period is short.

I need to thank many people here but still its not right time to thank them will wait for right time to come soon. Hope with more efforts I will make my balance sheet more strong enough that can make anyone bet on me.

Stepping into Childhood again!!!

It is Saturday and as usual snoozing morning, not in a mood to go office. It is very hard for a software engineer to work on Saturday and I am protesting it from my first day into the office but who is going to hear me!!! With all the thoughts I commanded myself from bed to tea to office.

It was regular day indeed but don't know why, I was thinking about my childhood, how I was careless about everything, how I was lazy in going school, how I used to play on ground without fear, how I missed my lunch / dinner when India lost cricket match, I think I might be carrying out my night dream into day light. Flashing frames of my childhood making me happy and feel young enough to do any crazy thing today without taking care of anyone around me, without thinking of my liabilities, office politics, personal problems. I just wanted to step into my childhood again!!

I was late for office but I didn't care, will work couple of hours more to finished unwanted job with that thoughts I started to walk towards office ( I am staying near my office, and that's why I always runs late in office) Hearing RED FM 98.3, checking my Gmail on my mobile while walking down the office I saw street children playing cricket in a park near my house. Well I wanted to do something crazy and here I got the chance to do something crazy, it took 2 seconds to decide play cricket with them.

I don't care that I will be late in office but I wanted to feel my childhood again. So I went towards them and requested them to include me also in their game. I was in my office attire, polished shoes but who cares. All children gathered around me and told me that "Uncle aap itne bade ho, bacho ke saath khel nahi sakte" I looked myself from top to bottom and thought "do I look like uncle??" Nope not at all, I am still child from my heart and I am still single, so I can't be uncle so soon in my life. But don't know how those children categorized me into that group.

I again requested them at least allow me to play couple of balls and told them "jo koi muje out karega mein usko inaam dunga" with the hearing of word "inaam" couple of boys turned to my side and said "ok ok…but sirf do ball uncle!!" Well again Uncle, anyways they are organizer of the event so anyways I have to accept whatever they call me. And all set for game. I was just excited as I was playing a final match of any tournament. I don't know it was excitement or achievement but I am sure that I was feeling happy and crazy at the same time.

One boy bowled me first ball and I hit hard, like I needed six runs to win and only last ball was remaining. Couple of children came towards me and told me "Uncle, thoda dhire se maro, nahi to ball gum ho jayega" I smiled to them feeling like I won the mind game of the game. On next ball another boy running towards me and delivered the ball and again I hit good not very hard this time but ball flying into air and one boy caught me near the far end of park. Howzzz that!!!!! Howzzz that!!! All children started shouting, started yelling Uncle Out!!! Uncle Out!!! And they were making a hurdle around me like Indian team is making after getting every wicket nowdays.

Now even I joined them in hurdle and started making noise. I don't know but I was so pumped up, I was again child, I was into my childhood which I was missing, I was smiling with them which have been vanished from my face in this down turn. There were some more elder people like me looking towards me, but who cares about them, I just wanted to do something crazy and I did it!! And I am very much happy and thankful to those children!!

I caught my bag and took two gel pens out of it and gave one to the bowler and other to the catcher. I did shake hands with them as I was giving them "Man of the Match" award in Final of the game!! It was really rare feeling i have felt so far in my life, I was out of this toxic world and into the world where feelings, emotions, desire have some value for money. I was child again when I was bidding adieu from those children and all waves hands towards me with the smile like i was one of them!!

I reached my office 30 minutes late and as soon as I stepped inside my office, child inside me vanished automatically and I was again in this hard, cruel, competitive and fast moving world. But I don't have any complaints because this is my "karmabhumi" and I have to live with in this but with that I need to preserve my innocent childhood which I think everyone is loosing out for survival.

My New Affair!!

From last 15 days I have moved from one orbit to another orbit. It was difficult to do because I don't wanted to give up my comfortable life with myself in my last orbit, I don't wanted to dare myself to do something new, something difficult, something which I haven't done from last 3 years almost. But now it was high time to change myself, to focus on what I dream of, to focus on what I want from life, to focus on hard work which I haven't done up to the mark so far. It is more behavioral transformation which lies inside your brain. It's about You Can!! It's about I Can!!

Few days ago after the working hours I had so much time in my hands and I was wondering that when I will say that I don't have time? But now yes, I can say to anyone that I don't have time, I don't have time to entertain myself as well as others because my all time is going into catching up my new affair. It has been remarkable start so far. I know it's just start we have to walk long on a path which is not smooth, not easy. I will be challenged by many people on the way both conceptually and morally but it was the only chance I have to take to prove something which I wanted to prove from long time ago.

Yesterday night I was dropping myself on bed to sleep around 2 am wondering what I have done today and what to do tomorrow. I was talking to myself in the midst of street light coming from my window but enlighten my bedroom completely. Well I hope my life will also get enlighten with the hope I am carrying with my new affair. I don't know when I fall into sleep thinking about the questions which I have been asked with my new affair. I want to give them answer not verbally but doing something which they think it's difficult to do.

I am encouraging myself from last many days because I am venturing a completely new things which will take me to my workaholic world. I know coming days are not easy, it will be more difficult more pressure from all peers and adding to that I will have only 4 months for this affair and there is many things to do in my to do list, many liabilities, many expectation. I hope I do better than my expectation by understanding the hard work, commitment and sacrifice required for turning each stone into milestone. I just want to focus on the target without thinking anything else and want to feel pleasure for which I am dreaming from last many days.

I am all excited, fascinated, happy and scared with my new affair. I am excited, happy because I am committed to do something and I am scared because I am in fear that what will be outcome of this affair. But I do understand that I should not worry about the outcome, I should more concentrate on my commitment and should trust my abilities to deliver result. Because I will never give up, courage is my conviction.

My New Affair is with my studies with which I am living day in and out, for whom I am thinking 24*7 and for whom I am counting each seconds which are becoming past.

Wish me luck and all the best for My New Affair.

Me MySelf and I - A Conference Call

Me: Hi ! So wassup? You wanted to talk to me?
I: Yes.Its important.
Me: Here I am.Burp out.
I: I don't know how you will take this.Promise ,you will listen logically.
Me: What ! What logically ? What's that?.Ok fine.I promise.I will listen logically? Let me take MySelf on conference call!!
I: Why MySelf?
Me: well dude I know only facts where he knows all logics of yours!!
I: Ohk!! Thanks.
Me: Hi Myself!! I is on a call and he wants to talk something important again!!
MySelf: what? Again something important!! Last month only we had a conference call regarding something important!! Now don't tell me its regarding his special friend again !!
Me: Just help him out yaar don't u see he is poor chap!! And plz don't use urs sarcastic words.
MySelf: ok!! I am listening.
Me: me too listening!! Go ahead

I: I think I have fallen in love with someone.
Me: WHAT !!! Again!!! You are out of your mind ! You are just...(jerk)
MySelf: I knew it Me. He will never improve. He loves to be emotional fool!!
I: You promised me Me. can you both listen me Plz.
Me: Ok Ok.Tell me about your so called love.
MySelf: ya ya go ahead I am all ears to listen your new love story again!!
Me: Stop it MySelf!! Don't use your sarcastic words!! Lets listen him first..

I: I don't know if its love or not but I am thinking about her a lot even I know...
Me: Hold on ,hold on! Don't tell me that this time you think its real and you have found the right one! Your TRUE LOVE waala lecture.I am just fed up with that...
I: When did I tell you that she is the one? I am just confused. I think she...
MySelf: I got it !I think I just got it.Stop me if I am wrong-You had "true" love for someone and she came to know about your "true love" and she broke your heart coz she didn't think that you were meant for each other,then you start counting your days of utmost frustration ,you start deleting every contact,you start hating everything around you,you start cutting yourself off from everything
Me: and then here enters the lady of your dreams, she talks nice to you,she tells you that you are sweet, your smile is cute, she likes to talk with you and all that crap and she likes you and you are a good person and nice friend and then some SMSs, some calls, some meetings and finally the Chalked up crevice on your heart sprouts and out flows the spring of love.Am I right?
I:Right…..rrreehhh…NO!!!

Me: Oh Gosh! Come on! Don't be an idiot. You fool. You know its nothing, and it's not possible also!! Just your stupid hormones going crazy. I mean, how many blows do you need to wake up?
I:Shut up! Just shut up!
MySelf: can you tell me who is she??
I: well frankly speaking I don't want to tell anyone on this earth that who is she!!
Me: oyeee You fool, can you hide things from me, I am "you" dumbo I know everything what you know!!
Myself: then whom you are waiting for just tell me who is she??
Me: Ok Ok !! she is my father's cousin brother's wife's brother's wife's daughter!!
MySelf: whats that???
Me: did you got I??
I: Yes I got you ba*****!!

I: I think I made a mistake calling you guys here. I thought you were the only ones who could understand me.
MySelf: Now don't tell us that we don't understand you
Me: Oh don't tell me.I UNDERSTAND YOU COMPLETELY.
I: Shut up I say!!!You don't even know the half of what I have gone through.
Me: Hello !I am "you" ,you fool. I am the first and only person to know everything about you.
MySelf: and I am second person!! Hahahah….

I:You know everything?May be you don't know this. You don't know that I already had realised before you that there's nothing called "love" that exists.
MySelf: Achha!!!
I: I don't love her ,Ok?I DON'T.Its just that I want her to know me.No one tried and even tries to do that. What do you know about me?You know nothing.
Me: How can you say that I??
I: let me tell you Me that you are insider of me. You are just past of me Me. You are always criticizer and always afraid of doing any new things. You just don't dare to put your foot outside your comfortable womb, you are moma's little boy!!
Me: I am your facts I…
I: and MySelf you just keep your mouth shut okk!! You think yourself a thinker and a brilliant who will change things around you. How many things have you changed so far!! don't forget you comes after me so be careful, think practical and plz come out from your dream wonderland.
MySelf: Achha!!!

Me: Now don't start your "I am alone and sad and no one loves me " waala crap ! I have already heard that a thousand times.You know what?You just don't want to be happy.
MySelf: and you don't wont people around you to be happy. You expect a lot from others and when you don't get what you expect then you start cursing yourself
I: If you both know me then why don't you help me out of this?

Me:Ok.So,why do you think they are not up to your expectation? I know what have you gone through.I know the disease you are suffering from and I know what it takes to live through it.I know it takes more than courage and strength to cope with it.But that's the whole point, damn it! Be proud of how you have faced it.
MySelf: I know you think in a different way and you want someone who thinks like you.You are desperate for a person with whom you can be the person you have always wanted to,someone who admires you,someone who holds you when you take up the blame ,stands for you when you find it difficult to face it.But have you ever thought that you may be looking at the wrong place?May be a "she" is not the answer to your problems.

I:I know.But isn't it just human,when I get inclined to someone who supports me emotionally? Isn't it normal then.
Me:I know but you have to learn.They are just trying to help you.Everyother girl who talks to you nice is not your "right one",right?
MySelf: and don't you know that your family is good enough to support you in every aspect of your life
I:I know.I am not that immatured .And I didn't fall for everyother girl and you know that.I like her,as a person as a friend as someone who tries to understand me.Isn't that love?

MySelf: No it is not love from her side as well as your side!! You are just getting greedy with your emotions dude!! You just keep yourself with the flow don't try to be adventurous by going against current
Me:No.It is not.Sometimes the line between friendship and love gets so blurred that you don't realise that you are crossing it.
I:But if only I give it a chance then only the friendship will give way to friendship,right?
MySelf: what chance you talking about dumbo!! Don't you know all facts don't you know all realities and don't you know your priorities dude, think about that not about her
I: I don't know what should I say now….

Me:Why are you so desperate,tell me? What's your problem? Why don't you let your fortune come to you rather than running after that? The one meant for you will surely come
MySelf: and take my word-the timing will be just perfect.
I:So are you guys telling me that it was always my fault? I did what my heart asked me .And I think whatever I did was just normal, anyone at my place would have done the same. I just listened to what my heart said to me.
Me, MySelf: Now listen us and do as we told you
I: I am not a jerk who falls for every other girl. I like her. She is a nice person and she really is so understanding. I swear I have not fallen for her but I have started thinking about her a lot and that's scaring me.I don't have the courage and I don't have anything left inside that can be broken.

Me: I am not blaming you sir. I am just asking you to watch your steps.
MySelf: But dude why are you hurting yourself when you know that is not possible
I:So how will I know if she is the one? You are asking me to stop listening to my heart and listen to the so called "practicality" of my mind. But if I do that, I may lose my "true"...
Me, MySelf:Do you believe in DESTINY?

I:Yes.
MySelf: Believe in your destiny and keep faith on your GOD
I: Hmmm

MySelf: and I If you know your destiny then decide your priorities and i am sure she will be not in top of your priorities, right??

I: mmmhhh......ya i think you are right!!!

MySelf: I hope you are getting us I... i am your future and i want you to make your future good as you can so stop thinking about all crap and concentrate on your prioritites.

Me: I think I understood what we are saying to him, what you say I??

I: hmmm....i think I understood!!!

Me:Then let's stop this here.

An Idea Can Change Your Life!!!

"If you have an apple and I have an apple and we exchange these apples then you and I will still each have one apple. But if you have an idea and I have an idea and we exchange these ideas, then each of us will have two ideas."

Yes idea is the only thing in this world which gets double when you shared and get lost when you keep with yourself. It has been proven before, now and after also that An Idea can Change your life!!

We as youngster always a step away from getting success only matters to cross that step is an Idea!! Who on earth created the contraption which gives you the ability to do something so awesome? Humans. And out of what? Stuff that came out of the earth. Humans developed the ability to work the raw materials into sophisticated shapes and forms that extend the reach of humans in unimaginable ways.

The computer which I am writing this on—every bit of it was raw material fashioned into a computing device. Everything I see around me – the building I am in, the furniture in this room, the books, the music system, the mobile … the list goes on. Every thing made by humans.

The magic sauce which completes the recipe is one word: Idea

Ideas Matter:

Over history, some humans have had ideas on how to do things based on discoveries they or their forbearers made. From Newton to Einstein, Abraham lincon to Mahatma Gandhi, Bill Gates, Dhirubhai Ambani and now recent one Barrack Obama all have proved that no matters how difficulties you face, no matter how many stones you have to turned, no matters what other thinks, no matters of anything between earth and sky only one thing an Idea Matters: Idea can change your life indeed!!

As the stock of ideas grew, so did the ability of humans to create stuff out of available raw materials increased. Ideas have the peculiar characteristic in that their stock does not diminish from use. Economists call this property "non-rival in consumption." Ideas multiply the ability of humans to achieve whatever it is that human's desire. The world we live in is one constructed by human will using raw materials—and ideas. What human will can achieve is only limited by the ideas that are available to humans at any point in time. Since there can be no conceivable limit to how large the stock of ideas can become, there is no conceivable limit to what human will can achieve.

Every object and every institution originated as an idea in some mind. And then it spread to others. It is a marketplace of ideas out there and over time, ideas that confer advantages to those who adopt and use them, survive. The more ideas that enter the no sphere, the more advantage it confers to humans collectively.

Ideas are dangerous:

Ideas can be dangerous because after all they are also coming from Human Minds. From Hitler to Laden all have proved that ideas not always great from human society. Its only ideas in the human minds have used other ideas for all kind of terrorism and inhuman kind of activities.

But as I always look a positive side, so I will not write negative thoughts on idea. Ideas arise in human minds. They have to be expressed for them to be conveyed to other human minds.

We are into 21^st century where ideas can be exchanged in matter of few seconds. That immediately means that if there are unlimited place for your idea, the increase in the stock of ideas will be enhanced and will give rise to new idea. And this difficult time where everything is downturn, people are leaving under fear of loosing job, financial meltdown, many more problems…. So this is the time where Idea for Change is required. This Idea for change has made Barrack Obama first black president of America and we want more ideas for change to make this world better place to live.

An Ad of Idea cellular once again reminds me here "An Idea can Change your life!!"

What An Idea Sir ji!!!