"Gurubhai"

It has been year now i am with you gurubhai!! It feels rejuvenate after seeing almost hundred post on blog.

Coming to Gurubhai, why gurubhai?? this question has been asked many times to me. Well need to give answer today.

Gurubhai, name itself suggest what a man!! but this is not only for particular man this for all those people who had have developed mastery in their respective field. Gurubhai name itself suggest wholeness, master of everything. This name always made me excited as i am right now. This is ongoing motivation for me. It is my desire to become and it my goal to reach. It is stage/frame where all look at you.

For me its more than name, it is motivation, it is feelings for a man who has made everyone happy around him!!

Thanks a lot to everyone who came here to read my thoughts !!

Happy Birthday Gurubhai!!

"Serendipity" - 4

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Part - 4
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First time after so many years he was humming a song. He was like a energetic young guy with a smile on a face, in love with someone and out for the date, first time ever. He was behaving like never before it did astonished many ones around him but for him it was like same day when he was out with her first time in college days.

"That was a rainy day and he was waiting near the far end of her home on his bike. She came little late, she smiled, waving hand to him and her eye blinked couple of time like saying sorry silently. He dissolved in the beauty of her, all his anger melted down when he looked in her eyes. He looked her from top to bottom escaping her eyes, His heartbeats got faster. He still remember that kurti color which she had wore. It started raining when they were on their way for the first date, they didn't stopped, they wanted to be together, to feel each drop of rain together. Each drop of the rain crashed against his body like wet needles and splash into a thousands tiny droplets. She dripped off his wet hair with her tiny finger. She flow down his face and dissolve a part of his into her. He wanted her so badly at that moment, he realized it today. And it is she again, bringing him back to what he is, which he had forgotten many years ago"

He still remember the streaks of lightning sound like making a way for them down to earth. Dark clouds of that day vanished from the sky today but still they are looking at him like they were looking at them that day.

"Do you pity me? Don't look at me like that" he murmured while looking at the sky.

She was getting ready for the day, it was same weekend for her but she was feeling something different today. She is accentuate on her looks today. She was wearing kurti. she was feeling a lighter as after many days they were going out. "It will help me to divert my mind for someday", she thought. But there was some shift in her behavior, she was smiling more, she was looking more beautiful, she was feeling younger. She remembered a word "Complete Package" he has given to her while looking herself into mirror, she just smiled.

They reached to the shopping mall. It was a well developed multi branded shopping mall having all the latest brands outlet and children gaming zone. "Moma, i want to play games and i want to have icecream also" her boy startled. "Not now", she ignored.

As this was their first visit to that mall, she wanted to roam around, to throw herself to each store like teenaged girl, same she used to do in her college days with him. But guys were having different idea. Her husband and child excused to her and went straight to the gaming zone and having their own fun. But she was missing some company today while roaming around the mall. She knew, whom she is missing.

He was sitting just outside the gaming zone in cafeteria and watching young children playing games. He always have fond of young children and he enjoys watching them playing.

Her husband was busy in playing games meanwhile her child somehow managed to escape him and was adoring ice creams near cafeteria. He saw this child and his eyes were glued on him.

He got attracted to that child. His face looks familiar with the face he see every night before sleeping. He couldn't able to stop himself and he got up and walked towards that boy. He stopped near that boy, and he realized boy's face looks like her face. He spoke with that boy and bought ice cream for him. He hugged that boy and left the cafeteria. But his eye's were following boy till that boy reached to his dad again. The ray of hope ignited just before comes to an end but he was feeling something different today. He was sensing something different going to happen today. He just looked around every where one more time. He did not found anyone.

Her husband was asking about that person to his child but he didn't bothered about much and they went near her in one of the outlet. Her child was telling about that unknown man to her and was describing him. Round long face, long hair, pointed nose, medium built, etc while listening that she started to imagine "him". She looked around one more time to find someone like him but she did not found anyone.

While going out from the mall his eyes again trace to that child but this time child was with someone. she was wearing same color kurti, almost same kurti which she was wear on their first date.

His legs got tumbled, he found goose bum's all round his body. same height, same visual aspect, same body, same hair style, same fragrance, he just stopped over their, he was not able to see anything around him except her. His vision became blurred, "his eyes were filled with tears" He realized. A drop of a tear fall from the corner of the eyes, on his cheek and touching his lips. For the moment he closed his eyes.


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End of Part - 4
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"Serendipity" - 3

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Part - 3
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Part - 1

Part - 2

She was feeling more lighter and secure after looking into his pics which he has sent to her many years ago. But things didn't worked out as per her will isn't it?? There is already one script penned by god and as per law of love, relationship you never able to quench your intensity for your love in fact her intensity got more vigorous. "I just need to meet him somehow, I just want to speak with him, Plz GOD", she murmured.

He stands on this side and she on the other. When he flinch, she also flinch along with him. They hear their footsteps, they hear each other talking, they hear each others silence. He find his presence converse with her. He find the moss of time as a trail submission on it. The only barter they practice was of words, whispers, silences and sighs. They just hope that it reached the other side, the other side of the wall. They hope that their words, feelings, love has that strength to climb across that wall.

It has been really long time to hear each others voice practically. He started to remember their last meeting ten years ago,"both were walking towards each other from the opposite end of that road. That afternoon of the past when the sun shone on that dusty, cleared path, he was walking on it and that was the last time she was also walking on the same path towards him. And after walking for long, they stubbed at rear end of the road, they stopped. She looked into his eyes but he required so much strength to look into her eyes for the last time, he knew that. They heard each other for the last time. And they depart" With the wet eyes he decided to break that barrier, "he can't stay now, he can't bear this undefined pain for all long his life. He want to meet her, he want to see her even if she don't want"

And as some divine was listening to their craves, measuring their intensity, it happened, it took 10 years although but it happened, That day finally arrived without their awareness but for them only. Again its a play of nature, rules have been defined by god.

It was bright Sunday morning. Day for their shopping, outing, You can say day for her child where she and her husband will have time together. This is now occasion for her husband lately become so much busy in his work. They decided to chip in to the newly developed shopping mall on other side of the city.

He was living like a cattle, all alone but his recent decision to find her and meet her was having a real reaction on him. "I needs to do some shoppe" He thought to himself. And decided to chip in to the newly developed shopping mall.

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End of Part - 3
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Happy Birthday Bro !!

Well I know this will be unusal to you, to read words rather than listening them that too from someone who stays with you all day. But for me it is one ways to express our deep bonding which we have and will have for the unseen future.

Things have been turned out good for you last year and i know things will be fantastic for you next year also. There is nothing really which you can not achieve if you desire. And yes i have seen that burning desire and focus in you but as we know there is no real limit of our desire it seems to me endless and it has to be endless isnt it??

Well I can wright a lot more here but coming to the day, your birthday . .

wishing you many many happy returns of the day brother. All your wishes may get fulfill this year.


Happy Birthday Bro

Stretch Beyond Your Limits

"Serendipity" - 2

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Part - 2
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Click here for Part - 1

Days were passing as usual for him. One fine brighter and cooler day he was sitting near lake side of his office campus. From beneath the trees he looks at the sun. The rays twinkle through the leaves. Not even a single fluff of cloud, not even a the smirk of white on the blue sky. It was leaving time now as the "common man" waits to reach home to his family. But here he has no one in his family. He was staying alone with her thoughts with memory of all those days.

"If death is only the thing unavoidable then what is this? Why is it so impossibly compulsive? Why is it so unfair? Why only i suffers when it is not my fault at all? What mystery this relationship holds more?" He thought to himself.

With the sight of wind blowing all along a lake and with the lustful retribution he wraps his arms around him. He flinches a bit, a flutter of desperation, and then surrenders. The eyes close by themselves, the teeth clench tight by themselves, the heart slows down...by itself.

"Is it all so possible? Can it be ignored? If yes, then why this heart still refuses to let go when it has bleeded all its life for something so unattainable? But then does it really want that?" his unstoppable mind keeps on thinking.

Few dead leaves ride the breeze and land on his shoulder. They cling to his shirt as if they have stopped on their way for a conversation. He opens his eyes. A face appears, something happen inside, he get attracted to that face. Deep silent around him making his thoughts more vibrant like never before. He takes a deep breathe.

A voice from soul, his one and only friend appeared in front of him saying "how can you be so childish, so naive? "It's nothing but just another story that will be forgotten with time.There are a thousand such stories and people talk about them in the evening gatherings". But then "why this pain if all is so normal and ignorable? Why this weakness? Why i am trying so hard to ignore it if the thing holds no importance to me?" He answered.

A column of ants carry a dead butterfly on their shoulders. At some distance another butterfly flutters and flies around in an uncertain path. He throws his backpack next to it and sits on it. His palms cover his face; a private night for the eyes. But not more than 5 minutes he sits like that. He takes out his mobile, reaches the Message Box and in there he writes her name, with so much love that his sight blurs with tears.

Few more days, and then weeks, and then months, and then years. It will all turn into pictures in a scrapbook, like childhood memories. And then these longing will be left with no choice but to hold the hands of the time and walk into the same frames.

Same flames were also burning inside her. Somehow she became restless from last few days. Her concentration was getting weak and she started to forgot the things which she were able to remember in sleep also. "Is it something wrong?" she asked herself.

She started to have a lot more time alone with herself. Some thoughts were continuously pondering her, trying to poke into her mind even though she don't wanted. But now they have penetrated, dissect her strong mind which has hold on her thoughts from last so many years. She was getting weak with her thoughts.

She desperately open her laptop, logged in to her gmail and searched for his mail where he has sent his pic along with the beautiful poem for her. She was silent for few minutes, staring to his picture. Her mind became more calmer now after seeing his pic. Her mind is now getting more vulnerable with his thoughts.

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End of Part - 2
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"Serendipity"

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Part - I
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She was sitting alone, sipping a coffee, watching wonderful play of nature from window, thinking about all those days went behind her. She has a long hair, deep magnetic eyes, structured body. She was caring her hair with her finger while doing that she fell back in a dream, she saw a blurred face of a guy, she knew who is he but she don't want to proclaim that, no one knows about him and even she don't want to but your heart always do what you don't want and she started dreaming about all those days, their first meeting, their first fight, those all proposals, a day when he went away from her, a phone call which she made to him, invitation of her marriage, wetness in his eyes, all those moments still alive very fresh in her mind, deep down the heart, And suddenly she awaked from her dream, she was surprised by her thoughts, it has been ten years now, her eyes became wet, she knew, she still loves him, she still feel for him but its a nature's play she has to accept that. Then a door bell rang, her seven year boy came back from play school and she again transformed herself from silent lover to a housewife, a mother.

She got up from the couch, washed her face and started to talk with her little boy. But today she was missing someone, she was not in her best mood, she was in deep thoughts of someone and suddenly her little boy asked her, " what happen ma?" she realized and cursed herself for all those thoughts she had for while and she hugged her child tightly, again a drop of water tumbled from her eyes to her son's shoulder. She again promised herself for not to think about him as she has done that so many times before also but as we know heart don't understand social language, it works as per rule made by god, it only understands feelings, love, emotions. she started to talk with her child to divert her mind, her heart from his thoughts. "Is that something different today?" she thought herself as she haven't missed someone so much from last few years.

"Ohh God, why can't i??" He whispered to himself, asking to god that why can't i forget her?? He is doing all well and trying to forget her since he left her from that day by concentrating on his work. He has done everything well in his life so far. He is successful professionally. He had fulfilled every wish of his parents but still he feels emptiness in his life. He has made everyone happy around him but he was far from happiness. He knew the reason but the promise he has made to her was more important than anything else. He is still bachelor, waiting for magic to happen, an illusive magic where he and she live together happily forever but He knew the fact and he came back to sense from his imagination, back to reality. He was taking lunch in the food court of his office and saw a girl and guy sitting in front of him, seems to be very good friends, and he remembered his days and he just smiled.

Days are passing as usual for her. She has lot many things to do in her daily routine, she manage all well her child, her husband, her work but lately she always found herself alone as her child has grown up now and her hubby's job is on full flow so things have been lot more automated. She was not a kind of person who live mechanical life but lately time has demanded that from her and she is struggling with her thoughts. Her husband is gentalmen but somehow she couldn't expressed herself what she is to her husband neither her husband understood. But she never claimed that infact she respect her husband alot.

It is wonderful emotional play, two desperate heart, two silent lover staying in the same city, unknown to each other, struggling with their feelings, thoughts but still making everyone happy around them except themselves, its burden of feelings they have on their heart neither they can share it with anyone neither they can bare this trauma of their feelings. Why this happen to people who are so close to each other from heart but so far in reality. Well God knows everything what he is doing and infact we will get only what we deserve irrespective of what we want.

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End of Part - I
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If you can . .

• If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
  

• If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too;
  

• If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or, being hated, don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
  

• If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
  

• If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
  

• If you can meet with triumph and disaster And treat those two imposters just the same;
  

• If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to broken, And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
  

• If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breath a word about your loss;
  

• If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch; If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you; If all men count with you, but none too much;
  

• If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds' worth of distance run - Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it, And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!