Friday, June 26, 2009

I still want you

I still want you

I still want to hang with you
Your memories still fresh in my mind

I still want to hold you by chances
your touch still warming my senses


I still want to think only of you
your thoughts never seem to fade away


This rain still reminds me of our times together
but the winter takes me far away


Into a world of loneliness
Into a world that I could never dream
Into a world without you


I still want you

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

7 wonders of My Life - Crush to Crash - Part 2


Continue from Part 1

Now I was no longer be a novice into this crush to crash crap, I had a experience of four crashes each with different lessons but still from inside you always search better than your previous and when you had back up of experience you become more choosy and clear with your dimensions. So its makes you better rather than best perspective of getting crush from someone and its same happened with me not exactly same but somehow I can consider this my 5th crush to crash crap.

I didn't want anyone at that point of time but as you know when you don't want anyone you will get someone very easily. And yes I got introduce to Ms K somehow and that somehow remains somehow only...hehehehe


Moving ahead with all the fun I had with this entire crush to crash wala things….its seems to be funny now. Why we have crushes? And if we do have then why it always get crash? Anyways mystery still continues when I meet with Ms V with some of my friends. I had immediately crushed on her but that crush did not last longer than 5 min as she was already committed and this was the fastest crash I had so far thank god!! But this was the best thing happened so far till now, I got one of the good friend in the process.

Anyways moving ahead i want my last crush should be different from all the above, waiting for the moments.

Enjoy!!!!



Saturday, June 20, 2009

Good thoughts by Swami Vivekananda.........


Words of Swami Vivekananda



When I Asked God for Strength
He Gave Me Difficult Situations to Face

When I Asked God for Brain & Brown
He Gave Me Puzzles in Life to Solve

When I Asked God for Happiness
He Showed Me Some Unhappy People

When I Asked God for Wealth
He Showed Me How to Work Hard

When I Asked God for Favors
He Showed Me Opportunities to Work Hard

When I Asked God for Peace
He Showed Me How to Help Others

God Gave Me Nothing I Wanted
He Gave Me Everything I Needed

-Swami Vivekananda




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If one day you feel like crying...

Call me...

I don't promise you that I will
make you laugh
but I can cry with you.

If one day you want to run away...
Don't be afraid to call me.

I don't promise to ask you to stay;
But I can run with you.

If one day you don't want
to listen to anybody,
call me...

I promise to be very quiet.

But if one day you call &
there is no answer...

Come fast & see me,
Perhaps I need you...



Tuesday, June 16, 2009

7 wonders of My Life - Crush to Crash - Part 1


Life is wonderful and when you look behind the moments which you have been lived with your life will present wonderful experience. Some of them might have taught you many things; some might be making you laugh and on some might be asking you questions and laughing on your.

Everyone in their lives would have crushes, and I too had my share of crushes. But, it didn't take much time for each of them to turn to crashes. None of my crushes took off, or probably they crashed even before they took off!! Today, when I look back, I can't manage but to have a laugh. But some of the crushes turn into great friends where some shrugs of from the memory, but still when you remember those incidence you bounds to give a broad smile.

My First crush was with Ms V. I was in my 7th class. I didn't know about love, crush and all phenomenons. I was so innocent in those days but then I no longer be innocent after I saw her in my class. She taught me what is love and crush without a word. We happened to speak only once that too after six months wait, but it happened when I was punished and standing outside a class and she was monitor of my class. She was complaining about me to the teacher and I told her, "SORRY". I still can't forget dumbstruck look on my face. And that's the miserable end of my first love. This is the way my first crush turn into crash.

I was in 10th class and was going in coaching classes and there I found Ms J oops…sorry Mrs. V. She was in same school but I never had interacted with her but unfortunately (fortunately for me) we became friend. I used to make notes for her with the hope that someday she will pay me back with her love And I was waiting for send-of party and that day came soon. I was as excited as I could but everything vanished in one frame of picture when I saw her with guy. Well disastrous moment for me. I didn't teach her single problem after that day I swear!!

Well life moves on and we all need to find someone else after someone that was the underlying philosophy on which I was working and it worked for me when I step into my junior college. Her name is Ms M. what a smile she has!! Ohh I still remember her smile great isn't it! We were in same practical batch and I never missed any single practical of that subject. It took 2 years to talk with her first time and it too late for anything as she wants to become doctor and I want don't want to be doctor. End of my 3rd crush. Very sad isn't it!!

It truly said that "Bander kabhi gulati marna nai bhulta hai" even I didn't but it took couple of years for my new crush Ms R. We were in the same Degree College. She was a so called babe of the College and I still remember that semester in which I helped her a lot, each assignment, each program, each journal what not I had done for her and same time she was also giving me some "bhaav". But everything cleared to me that when I came to know that all guys were getting bhaav from her. Well that was a time where I really had serious confrontation with myself regarding picking up wrong script always . . . haha . .

Things were going smoothly and I was happy also with myself, no more crushes so no more crashes…… " Jiyo aur Jine Do " But God didn't wanted to see me happy and one more crush to crash, this time it was more intensive more progressive kind of crush…….


Monday, June 15, 2009

My First Love


I had a dream (No I'm not going to become a billionaire or political leader...) last night... or should I say early today morning.

I dreamt that I was travelling with my mom on my bike. We reached a beach. Then we removed our slippers, held them in our hands and started wading in the waters. We were walking through the length of the beach and I remember talking to her. My heart was full and I wanted to desperately open up to her. Her calm voice and smile comforted me and I was ready to pour out my feelings. I was telling her definition of my dream girl same time I saw a faint concern on her face and I woke up.

I wonder if dreams have any significance. I guess it felt strangely comforting to see my mom smiling at me with some concerns in her eyes. When you come to a point where you feel that you will not belong here anymore completely, you don't belong to any place or to any people completely...what do you do? I guess family is the first fort of security that comes to my mind. I guess no matter how bad a prodigal child I am or I was, how many dreams of my mom I had fulfilled so far, I many times I made her to feel proud of me, I don't know any of this count but only one thing I knew is that my mom will always love me. No reasons for that. She's my mother so she has to love me. :) It's a beautiful law of nature.


Dreams I believe sometimes show what we desire or what we fear. I don't think dreams can predict or determine my fate. But to dream is all I we have. And nobody can take that away from me. Mom don't worry you are and you will be always my first love. No matter I will marry to beautiful girl, no matter I will have little time for you now, no matter I will be away from you but mom I promise you that I will always take care of you, I will always love you. I owe you so much that I doubt myself that I will able to pay you back or not but I will try my best mom. Just keep your faith intact on me as you did when I was child, keep showering your blessings on me as you did always, however big I am, I am still your little child, your shanku mom, love you.



Life @ Pause

Our life's too much busy
With lots of happening
The pace of promises
to never keep slowing

Many commitments to keep
Lots of thing to learn and read
And then aim to emulate
those with examples who lead

exam pressure and responsibility
with alarming regularity
keeping balance with family
Hoping for some more clarity

Career, job options and dream jobs
And then a nagging worry of the loan
running thinking day long with high spirit
Followed by bright sunny mornings when you moan

Words of wisdom passed from your well wisher
"Introspect", "Identify", "Do what you like"
A mad rush to do everything you can
Anything - to get that spike

Forgotten the real reason

we keep fighting throughout the life
For peaceful death

I am Back !!


Yes I am back after long time, a time which has given me lot of hopes. Hopes for changes, Hopes for dreams, Hopes for mission, Hopes for passion, these hopes are still alive with counting each day becoming past. Nope I am not soldier who save others life while fighting on border but I am a common human who fight for his dreams and responsibility and for fulfilling those dreams and responsibility he keeps his hopes alive.

Just few months back when I wrote about my new affair, I knew that this affair will not going to be piece of cake and to some extent I was right. In life or say in practical you will never get smooth and straight road to drive it's your responsibility that how safe and well you drive on a path which you have chosen. It's same with me I don't know how well I drove but there were many obstacles on a way some of them were self made some of them natural but I reached the day with hopes that are still alive.

I don't know that I am giving so much importance to my new affair or not but this was the first time ever I was confided to something so strongly and you knew about it. I am not asking any favor from you but still you better know what I am saying right GOD?

Its all started in January till June first week, I am not saying that I had done wonders any one can do it but it is special to me the way I had done it. Its making me feels satisfied up to some extent but result is not in my hand and I am having awful nights while thinking of it. But now it's over, waiting for the result, preparing SWOT analysis with each case. With the passing days I am coming to know that how things will be difficult when u time is running against you.

Nothing is going on my way recently, for every small thing I have to struggle, now its time where i need to understand and implemet time value money concept, early the cash flow better will be NPV and there is better chance that you will get high internal return rate. This IRR is important ofcourse finally you are going to judge by your NPV value but for your internal satisfaction IRR is important. I need to understand what is my assets and liablities, and where I need to leverage myself to get the better return. There is lot more things to do and understand this time as my payback period is short.

I need to thank many people here but still its not right time to thank them will wait for right time to come soon. Hope with more efforts I will make my balance sheet more strong enough that can make anyone bet on me.